Zagreb, July 5th, 2015
Hello boy who search for his girl,you don't know me, we never met. I don't know you but I read your columns so I kinda know what you want to say. You probably won't even read this post/letter that I wrote to you but that's OK. I just wanted to say something to you that I think you should know. And if I'm jumping from one end to another that's just how my brain work in his mysterious way.
In your columns you described you perfect girl, you know 'The One' girl. And I don't want to sound cocky and presumptuous but sweet baby Jesus I'm all of that. But than you wrote about girl that you wrote your columns to, who if I got it right is your 'The One' but she lives far away and etc. That got me confused. Is that girl real? And if she is and she is that One that you search for, than why aren't you with her? Yeah, distance is a bitch and all that but if you love someone and you know that he or she is that one that you want for the rest of your life than distance is not the problem in the story. I would move heaven and earth to be with the one that I love and with who I want to grow old with. I would give anything to even find him.
I would love to write about one time in my life that I thought that I have that. A time where I thought I was the luckiest girl in the whole universe because I had met Him and he loved me and he asked me after perfect six years to be his wife and have a family with him. But my fairy tale ended with tears, broken heart, destroyed plans and dreams. I didn't get my happy ever after. Another girl now calls him her husband. The same girl that was in relationship with another man while she got all lovey dovey with my fiance. But that's my story, my lessons to learn from and my history. And it's a seven years long story, so let's leave it at that. So if that girl that you wrote your columns to is your 'The One', go after her and don't let go. Fight for what you want if it's her that you want.
You wrote how the girl that you are looking for is hard to find. Sometimes it's like you think like she doesn't even exists. And sometimes I thought that you don't even know what you want. Or maybe you do know but you just don't know if you want her or stay single and enjoy the freedom.
In one of your first columns you wrote how girls don't want or don't see a guys like you. A guys that are honest, good, respectful, kind, who treats his girl right, etc. How we only see guys that are douchebags. But I have to tell you that we see them (the D ones) and we see you but you don't see the girls that see you and not them because you only see girls that see the other ones. If you get what I wanted to say. OK, what was that? How many see can you put in one sentence? Jeez, girl.
Since I know that this is going to be a long one, and I want to get my point clear I would like to tell you a story. Couple months ago I was in town and I ran into a friend from elementary school that I haven't seen since we went to a different high school. We sat on the terrace of one of the many coffee bars around square and began to talk about everything that happened in our lives since we last met. I told her my "adventures", and she admitted that there was a guy that we both knew who liked me but he told her that he can't put me into a certain category and that because of that he wouldn't asked me out on a date. Now let me tell you something about me.
I'm a girl that is single (and loving it) but is looking for her 'The One' guy. I'm a girl who knows what she want and what she doesn't want. I have my own opinions and when I don't agree with something you will know it and you can be sure of that. Just as you can be sure that the sky is blue and grass is green. I fight for what I know is worth fighting for and I don't back down until I realize it's a lost cause and my time is wasted. I love sports (basketball, hockey, football - THE football, not that European comedy but I can watch it if I have to - swimming, water polo, etc.) and I go to the games if I have someone to go with. I'm addicted to music. No, not that crap that everybody listens to in Croatia. I love action films, comedies, horrors, thrillers, dramas, rom-com, etc. you name it I'm game if it's a good move or TV show. I play video games; my fav is Spec. Ops: The Line. But I played NBA 2K13 and 14, Sims, Civ V, etc.
I can talk for hours about nothing and everything. I'm summer addict and that is my time. Because my parents are from Dalmatia and Herzegovina I LOVE Mediterranean food and food in general. I love sweet and I'm proud chocolate addict. I'm brutally honest and my respect is not easy to earn. I don't trust. I can feel when people are lying to me. I'm a sarcastic and sometimes a cynic person. I have a high (sometimes too high) tolerance for stupidity. But when I'm done, I'm done. No going back, no second chances and no trust return. When I fall, I fall hard. I'm loyal and ready to go to the end of the world and back for the ones that I care for. I'm stubborn as a bull (that's because I'm a double Taurus - you said that you have four people in your head, well I have two bulls so I win ;) ). I'm down to earth, see as it is type of a girl. And I'd rather be alone than with anyone just to not be alone.
Lets back to the point...
But somehow you and guys like you who say they are looking for a girls like me don't see me or a girls like me. You say that you want a girl like us but when a girl like me is in front of you, you don't see me. You see a girl who want a D-bag because she thinks that he is a Man. That somehow she would be the one who would change him. HA!!! We are in this constant... - I don't even know what to call it. - where we search for something that is right in front of our eyes but we don't see it.
So if you are looking for a girl that you describe in your columns, she's there. How I know? Well, I'm one of them. If your description has a check boxes and you need to check every box for every girl, than in my case all boxes are checked. But somehow I think that you don't want a girl like me. I think... well, I'm keeping that to myself because I can.
So dear boy, you need to get yourself together and decide what you want. Do you want to find that girl or you want to talk the talk how you do want to find her but you want to stay single and search the ocean for some more fish that you know is not her? Or did you already found her but she doesn't want you or whatnot?
I still can't decide would I let you know about this letter or not. But in case that I do let you know, it was nice writing to you. Hope that you'll find her and get your happy ever after if that is what you want. But if it isn't than it would be, in my humble opinion, good to change a topic of your columns. In both cases, I'll continue to read your columns because you make me laugh, and you make me cry while I'm laughing and that is a lots of brownie points.
P.S. I have a recommendation for a group that you might, hopefully, gonna like. Their name is 'The Civil War' (my two fave songs from them are 'Devil's backbone' and 'The One That Got Away').
XOXO
A
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