How stupid can you be?!?!?!

I have a huge tolerance for stupidity (something that kept me in a 7 year relationship, to my regret) but when I saw this a couple a weeks ago my huge tolerance disappeared in nanosecond.

This is a meat product that I love since I was a toddler. It's a  "čajna pašteta" or "Tea Pate" produced by a Croatian company. It's packaged in a plastic case. What made me see red a couple weeks ago is this white label on package of this product. It's a warning for consumers that in translation from Croatian to English means: "Casing is not edible". And than my mom informed me ( she works in a big Croatian supermarket chain store as a head of department where you can buy meat products such as hams, salami, dry salami, etc. in one piece or sliced ) that they put that same label on salamis that are put in sale in one piece.

How stupid you have to be to go and eat a plastic case in which this Pate or salami or ham is packaged?!? What give them an idea that a plastic was edible just because their favorite salami or ham or in my case this Tea Pate was packaged?  I really want to find out those people for whom this warning labels was placed in the first place.

Is it just me or is there anyone else who thinks that we as humans become increasingly dumber and dumber with every passing year? What is going to be next that is going to get this lovely label with warning that that product is not edible or is harmful in some kind of way?

I hope that this is a unique case and that is going to stop with this. Because if it's not, than I'm afraid for a humanity and society that we know.

A year and so ago I found this picture on Pinterest and it made me laugh but today it make me think about it.

I'm not judgmental person. I know that not everybody is scary smart and that not everybody has a superior intelligence. But to know that plastic wrapper or case isn't edible is a common sense and it doesn't require high IQ. I don't think about myself as a superior person because I have high above-average intelligence but I'm worried about future if we need this kinds of warnings in 2015. I certainly don't think that people should be killed because they are not smart enough by someone else's standards, criteria or opinions because we all have something to contribute to our future and future of the next generations. But I'm worried what kind of future the next generations would have if this is our future.

I hope that all this had any sense for you, people that read my humble blog ( and let me just thank you for that ). And if you ever come to Croatia buy this Tea Pate by company named "Sljeme", because it is so good with a toast and tea or coffee if you drink that. And a disclaimer for future references; I wasn't paid or sponsored by this company for writing this blog post. I just needed to write about this and get it outta my system so that maybe I could go to sleep ( it is 5:54 am June, 21st right now as I write this post ) because this was running through my mind.

Please let me know what you think about my blog or this post or anything else. I value everyone else's opinions and if I offended someone I apologize. This is just my opinions and we as a humans do have rights to have our own opinions and they don't have to be like everyone else's. And you don't have to like them but you do have to respect my right to say what I think just like everyone else have that same right. 

OK, it's time for me to go to sleep =) Good night or good morning to all of you, Oh, and happy first day of Summer.

Love,

XOXO,

A

Rambling VOL. 1 =)

For today I have two topics so I'm going to jump into them right away. Let's start... :)

• Love & Relationships

"You know my role model is Charlie Sheen and his role in 'Two and a half men' is what inspire me in my life."- said a guy that I met recently when I asked him what TV show is his favorite. WOW!!!! And what is sad in that whole story is that he is not the only one that gave me that answer. Of course not in the same wording. Because if the wording were the same I would sat on the floor and started to laugh and cry in the same time. 

If that is a reality than I can kiss my future as a wife and a mother goodbye and start to adopt bunnies. The only thing that fellas want to talk about is sex and how fast can they get in my panties. Am I meeting the wrong population in my country or are the normal guys that you can talk about anything (for e.g. in my case; music, games, books, sports - NHL, NFL, swimming, handball, basketball, movies, TV shows, etc.) in relationships or gay?

I just want to meet a man who is good, hones, taller than me (I'm 5'7"), who has good sense of humor and can make me laugh. A guy that can make me feel safe and can make me cry but in a good way. And a man who doesn't cheat. I had enough of that kind in my life to last me for a couple of lives. 

Is that too much or impossible to find? Does that man even exist anymore? Or is it easier to find unicorn, Loch Ness monster and bigfoot in the same time and place?

• Work

What work?! OMG, don't even let me start on this topic. I'm tired of all the job interviews that I've been to. Sometimes I wonder why are they even put job ads when they already know whose going to get a job. 

They tell you that they are going to call you and that you can count on that and then starts radio silence. Or you don't have enough job experience in that field or in general. How in the Gods name are you gonna get that experience when you can't get a job in the first place?!?!? 

In my case, I have 8 months of that experience but most of the job positions require one or more years in that field. In Croatia there is something that is called "Professional training without employment". That is for young people who finished high school or college and doesn't have work experience or have less than a year. In nutshell is internship after which you end up jobless in most cases but you have that year of experience. For me this option in not possible because I have that 8 months and for me to complete my internship program I need to work for 4 months. For our Employment Bureau that is useless waste of their time and money. Because nobody apparently wants to hire someone for four months. So I'm in a limbo where I can't apply for most of job ads and I can't apply for this "Professional training without employment". And that is so frustrating  that I can't even describe it. I want to work in field that I got my high school diploma in and there is a lost of job ads for that field but nobody wants to hire you if you don't have experience. 

Well, I rambled enough for today (OK, I can talk about these two topics for hours and hours but I wont). 

Love,

XOXO,

A

SYOTOS, baby girl...

Wow...

I still can't believe that is been a year since you are no longer with us. Today is your 26th birthday and first anniversary of your death. Somehow you turned this day to something that I don't know how to describe. 

Can I still say "Happy B-day, baby girl!"?

If things were different today you would be surrounded with your friends, family and your baby girl who would be 9 months old. I found out from your dad that your baby was a girl and I'm sad that you died not knowing that. We would go to our favorite coffee shop and order two Nescafe with chocolate and two big slices of cheesecake with strawberries. My present would left you speechless like always. But instead I woke up this morning, dressed and after buying flowers - cream roses; your favorite, with one pink for your princess - visit your grave where you and your angel are sleeping. You know how much I hate funerals and cemeteries.

The news that you died left me speechless and broken. When I got that call I thought it was party invitation but we all got a two sentences: "Ida died this morning. Her mother found her.". I didn't want to admit to myself that you are gone. I got your letter for me two days after your funeral but I read it two months after. In one hand I understand why you did what you did but on the other hand I'm still angry at you. Why would 25 year old girl with a baby on the way killed herself because of one douche who doesn't deserve to walk, talk and breathe. 

You were there for me two months before when the other douche broke me and my heart and you told me that nothing is worth taking your life over some SOB. And then just two months later you did just that. You took your life and left us to live without you and your infectious laughter. Your mom was in hospital for nine months and she still doesn't speak. The only thing that she said to me when I visited her for the first time was: "I found my baby again and I lost her again.". I didn't know what to say to her after that. What can you say to a woman who in one day lost her only daughter, her only child and her only grandchild by finding her in a bathtub.

Why didn't you call me?!?! Why didn't you listen to your own advice that you given me?

I miss you every single day and I'm going to miss you for the rest of my life because you were the only one who really knew me.

I blamed myself for a long time and sometimes I still do. Even when everyone says that it's not my fault. I introduced you to that SOB and in the end he was and is the reason why I no longer have my friend with me, why your mom doesn't talk and why your dad is a different man than he was. He doesn't smile anymore and he always carries that silly book of yours with him.

I know that one day I will see you on the other side and we will drink that Nescafe with chocolate and eat all the cheesecakes in the world. We will laugh until everything hurts and tears are running down our face. You'll know what I think even before I speak and I'll know that when your eyes got all sparkly trouble is behind the corner.

Until then I'm going to carry the memory of you with me wherever I go and whatever I do.

Love you forever baby girl and your princess too.

Note: I dedicate this post to all those who have lost someone due to suicide. I have you all and your loved ones in my prayers. I hope that one day all wounds would be healed and you will find peace and happiness. I also hope that they found peace wherever they went after this life. 

XOXO,

Anna

My Alphabet...

I think that every person on this planet if you ask have his/hers alphabet. That every letter in it reminds him/her of something that begins with that letter.

This is my alphabet, my reminders and my belief...

A Ambitious - something that (by mine opinion) everyone should have as their personal characteristics. To want be better version of ourselves. To finish school, to find job, to learn new languages, skills, to upgrade ourselves, etc.

B Bunny - my baby. I love her so much. She's my zen when I'm a mess. Always surprise me with something new that I learn about her. Her name is Lina and I can't imagine a day without her in it.

C Chocolate / Cookies / Cakes - I'm complete addict to this yummy trio. OMG!!! No words. :)

D Dog - a pet that I want to have for a long time. One day when I'll live in my own home (hope soon) I'm going to make this wish come true. Only problem is that I can't decide whether it will be a Siberian Husky or Alaskan Malamute. For now it's 60:40 for Malamute.

(Siberian Husky - Alaskan Malamute)

E Earth - Home. The most beautiful planet in whole galaxy (for me). 

F Faith - Something that keeps me going when goings get hard. If I didn't have faith that tomorrow will be a better day I would lose it a long time ago.

G G - First letter of my moms name. I know she should be with the letter M, but my mom is special entity and she should have a letter dedicated just for her. She is someone who was always there for me. Every time that I was sick, sad or happy she was there. My shoulder to cry on. My safe harbor, my rock and my biggest cheerleader. She was the first person that I saw when I woke up in ICU. Her hug was what woke me up. When my world crumbled beneath my feet she was the only person beside my sisters who hold me up and didn't let me fall apart. She is my best friend and I love her so much. And I could go on and on about her...

H Home - of my own. Something that I dream about for a long time. / Handball - love that will never be replaced. 

I Ice Cream - Come on! Show me who doesn't love Ice cream. Chocolate, strawberry, caramel, pistachio, tiramisu, dark dark chocolate, coconut, etc. I can go on like this for days. I'm NOT fan of vanilla. 

J Job - something that I desperately need but in economy like this in my country is hard to find. Like I'm searching for a unicorn.

K Kids - something that I want in my life. I love them and enjoy being surrounded with them. I'm little afraid that it's going to be tough path for me to have kids because I had two operations on my both ovaries (first on my left, than five years later on my right) where they needed to remove tumors. But I have faith that one day I'm gonna be a mom to two beautiful children. 

L Love - is something that for a while I lost complete faith in. But as time past I realized that it wasn't loves fault that people cheat and lie. I always believed in love and I always will. Somewhere in this chaotic world there's a love that I'm searching for and I have faith that I'm gonna find it.

(the translation on the left picture, a sticker that I carry in my wallet for 15 years, is: "So what if I believe in love")

M Music - Country, R'n'B, techno, house, little rap, little pop, little rock, some jazz and blues. Music is food for my soul. I always have to listen music when I leave house, or if I'm studying, or just relaxing, and sometimes even when I'm sleeping. / M - my youngest sister. She was born two days before my 5th birthday so she ruined my party because my mom was in the hospital with her. She is me and a little better version of me in some things. I'm very proud sister.

                                                                 

N N - my two year younger sister. Nobody calls her by her given name because she doesn't want that. So we all call her a shorter version of her name. She's complete opposite of me. She's always there for me just like lil' M and I love them both to the moon and back.

O Ocean - Big blue perfection. I have on my bucket list a wish to dip my toes in three of five oceans. (I really want to meet a person who want to dip toes in Arctic and Southern Ocean.)

P Puzzle - something that I can do all day every day. That exciting feeling to complete the picture is my drug of choice. When I was a kid I could  put them together with picture on the other side.

Q Quotes - funny, hilarious, sad, inspirational, life, love, friendly, etc. We can find ourselves in quotes. They can motivate us to be better person, to want more, to grieve easier, to show our love and emotions by someone else's expressions. 

R Reading - one of my favorite ways of relaxation and escape from stress. Good book, good music, candle, favorite tea, cookie of chocolate (or both ;) ) and let R&R begin. Everywhere that I go I always have a book in my bag for 'just in case'. 

S Summer - time when I'm in my own element and everything is perfect. / San Jose - city that my heart calls home even when I've never been there. But every time I look at pictures of that city I feel peace. Hope that one day I would call it a home. My dream to move to USA is something that I wanted since I was a kid and with every day that hope and wish just grows.

T Travel - Love it, crave it, want it :)  / Truth - only thing that I want from people around me and in my life. Truth, honesty and faithfulness is three things that I need to be who I am. To give myself to others. Lie, dishonesty and infidelity are three things that I can't and won't forget of forgive.

U Unconditional - love. The best kind of love. It's something that we all seek, wish for and dream of. 

V Vacation - something that I really need from time to time. Not just from work but from people, stress and a lots of other things :)

W Why? - Question that I ask myself a million times a day.

X Xmas - my favorite holiday. I know, I know it's Christmas, but I have so much under letter C, and since Christmas is my absolute favorite holiday it deserves his own spot. I just wish that Christmas is in summer here in Croatia and not in the winter when it's cold and yuck. Cookies, a sense of peace and belonging, happiness and presents. I know, I know that Christmas isn't about presents but I love giving them and if I get something in return I'm not going to refuse ;). 

If you ask me this is a perfect Xmas. Just add friends, family and lots of cookies. 

Y Yogurt - greek, with fruit, with chocolate or cacao, regular or with muesli. Yogurt is my salvation. There's a story about me and yogurt. When I was two my dad took me on vacation to our house on Adriatic coast (it was summer) and my mom couldn't come with us that day, but she came a week later. She came with a travel bag full of fruit yogurt because that was only thing that I would eat. Even today I could only eat and drink yogurt and be happy. (of course chocolate, cookies and cakes are in the deal)

Z Zagreb - I was born and raised in this town that I live. This city is combination of really old and new. This city have his secrets and his special kind of magic. / Zadar - I spent so many summers in this town where a family from my fathers side live. Zadar is famous for his breathtaking sunsets, historic sites and a world known Sea Organ. (The picture on the top is my hometown Zagreb, a main square at night. The bottom picture is Zadar by day. And a little video of Sea Organ and a music that crates with waves.)