New year in front of me =)

Yea, I know that the famous New Year's day was four months ago (and 18 days :P) but for me a new year begins with my B-day. Today I'm turning 26 and I'm feeling good about it. So today is my new years day.

I'm not making any new years resolutions bcs that is just stupid and useless. Why, you may ask. Well, as far as I know nobody follow thru with that BS. We all at some point take a pen and a piece of paper and put some goals, wishes and what not on that paper and stick with what was written for about a month or two. For those who stick with their list of resolutions and follow thru till the end I applaud. But for the rest of us who don't I have a piece of advice that I recently got .

'Make it simple and one day at a time.'

Who gave it to me will be my little secret because some things should stay private. Couple of years back I made a whole bunch of resolutions on New Year's Eve and decided that that year I'm gonna follow thru but I didn't and in the end end up disappointed with myself. So I changed the game and so far I'm happy with the new game. Every year since than on my B-day I make a couple of decisions (5-7 max) and follow thru them one day at a time and I don't put a pressure on myself . I'm happier and in the end (that's a day before my next birthday) I sit down and go thru everything that I did or didn't do and if I accomplished even one of my decisions I'm happy and proud of myself.

So this year I'm going to share three of my five decisions with you.

1. Write every day for a whole year in a diary - doesn't need to be a novel every day, just a quick hello or a quote that make my day...
2. Try to trust in people more 
3. Expand my safe zone, learn something new and let new people in

I even put some projects that I'm going to do in this new year. I'm ready to live again without fear of something new and I'm going to let new people in my life. I know that this last thing is going to be really tough on me because I was burned too many times in last two years but I'm letting past to stay just that - past -  and look forward into the future. I'm going to try to be a better person, better version of me and find my place in this big world. Last year I was a mess, empty and broken shell of a very happy girl and I thought that nothing is important any more. But boy was I wrong. Today, a year later, I'm a whole again. Happy and the most important, I'm me again.

So Happy Birthday to me and let the party begin. I'm going to stuff my face in my birthday cake (funny for a chocolate addict my B-day cake is a strawberry cake)

 and spend some time with my family, friends and definitely some me time.

Oh, and happy belated (by two days) B-day to my little M. I'm so happy that you ruined my 5th birthday. I'm so happy to have you for my little sister. Love you, sis.

P.S. Happy B-day to anyone who has birthday on May 19th.

P.P.S. I would be really happy if you guys could leave a comment if you like what I'm doing or if you have some suggestions or even just to say hello. And I really would like to know how you spend your B-day and what is your favorite B-day cake. 

If you want to contact me you can do that via my facebook or twitter page. 

Thank you for reading this.

Love ya,

Anna

XOXOXO

Happy Mother's Day

Mother's Day is a modern celebration honoring one's own mother, as well as motherhood, maternal bonds, and the influence of mothers in society.

Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers in this world. I'm not a mother in true sense of the word but I have a beautiful baby that I love the most in the world. She's a bunny. Her name is Lina and she has my whole heart in her little paw. But this is not about me, it's about my mom.

On May 19th, 1989 at 05:30 am my beautiful mom got the most perfect bundle wrapped in pink, me. At that time she didn't know that she also got a stubborn, independent, mischief prone, sarcastic but also good, funny and cuddly daughter.

My mom was always in my life. She always listen to what I have to say. And she always wanted to know what is going on in my life. She still does. I know that she will always got her arms open for me to cry on her shoulder or she will listen when I need to rant about something or someone.

As a kid I was always sick. Because of my throat I was 80% of my childhood on some kind of antibiotics. Of us three I was the one who went the most to doctors and she always went with me without complaining (and I know a couple of friends whose mothers complained when there kids was sick).

When I was 16 and half I got very bad appendicitis and I ended up in ER at 04:30 pm but they admit me at 10:40 pm. That whole time my mom was with me and hold my hand. She tried to reassure me that everything will be OK and that I have nothing to worry about. She was with me until they decided that I need (before that they wanted to wait for the morning to see how things would go) emergency operation.

After that I had a three more surgeries and with everyone of them my mom was there for me. With my last surgery something went wrong and I ended in ICU for 24 hour observation. Most of that time I don't remember but a nurse told me what was going on around me. What I remember is hearing my mom's voice in the distance and then a hug that woke me (they told me that they were very concern because I didn't woke up like they expected).

In these almost 26 years that I'm my mothers daughter I learn so much from her. I never felt unwonted or not loved. I never felt neglected and I always knew that my mom would be there for me when I need her (sometimes even when I just wanted to be alone).

In these world there are women that desperately want to become mothers but for some reason they can't and there's also the ones that have kids but neglected them or harm them. I don't know how a mother can do anything harmful to their children.

I hope that one day I will be a mother but until then I have my baby to look after and took care of.

Happy Mother's Day, mom! I love you till the moon and back.

M-O-T-H-E-R
“M” is for the million things she gave me,
“O” means only that she’s growing old,
“T” is for the tears she shed to save me,
“H” is for her heart of purest gold;
“E” is for her eyes, with love-light shining,
“R” means right, and right she’ll always be,
Put them all together, they spell “MOTHER,”
A word that means the world to me.